One day, I went to preach the gospel to an evangelization object. The gospel friend warmly received me and was willing to let me tell her about the end-time work of God. I was very glad at this, but at the same time I felt very nervous because I had never testified about God’s work to anyone before. “What should I do now? If only there were someone who could testify about God’s work here today! But…” I had no choice but to fellowship nervously with her. After only a few words, I had nothing more to say. Just at that moment, she asked me several questions and said that she would accept this stage of God’s work if I could tell her clearly about it. Hearing her words, I got more nervous and my words became incoherent. What I said became more and more insipid, which made the gospel friend confused. I was burning with anxiety and sweat was oozing out of my forehead. Half of the day had passed, but I still could not tell her clearly about God’s new work. In the end, I had to say: “That’s all for today; we will have more fellowship some other day.”

On the way home, I thought, “How difficult it is to preach the gospel as I am unable to testify about God’s work! Aha, yes, Brother XX is capable of doing this. I’ll ask him to testify about it to the gospel friend.” So, early the next morning, I went to look for that brother. Yet I spent two days going to many places but failed to find him. I was so worried that tears streamed down my cheeks. And I couldn’t help complaining: “O God, since you know I am unable to testify about your work, why didn’t you help me find this brother? What should I do now?” When I was at a loss, God’s words reminded me: “You even think that doing so is being faithful to God. You blind people! Why don’t you come before my presence more to seek but act ineffectively by yourselves? Recognize! Today, the one who does the work is absolutely not man but the only true God who rules over everything—the Almighty!” “Return to my presence more; frankly speaking, now no matter what you do, without returning to my presence, you will absolutely have no way to accomplish it….” O God, I’m really too blind. Today, the one who is doing the work is you—the almighty, only true God! However, in the face of the difficulty, I didn’t seek you but laboriously looked for a man to rely on. No wonder I couldn’t find the brother these two days. There is your good purpose behind that: you want me to practice testifying about your work and perfect me in this aspect. When I had understood the intention of God, I immediately prayed to him: “O God, thank you for inspiring me. I’m willing to depend on you and look to you and make an all-out effort to cooperate with you to bring the gospel friend before you.”

After praying, I found the truths relevant to the state of the gospel friend and ate and drank them carefully. When I went to talk with her again, miraculous result appeared: A continuous stream of God’s words flew to me like bubbling living water. I felt as if I had innumerable words to say, and the gospel friend kept nodding while listening. And then I sang two hymns. Hearing the hymns, she was very happy and said excitedly: “Many people talked about this to me before, but I did not take anything in. Today, I have understood that this is truly the work of God. I am willing to accept it; please stay here tonight and tell me more about the intention of God.” Seeing her so happy, I was also very excited and thanked God again and again in my heart.

Through this experience, I have tasted the sweetness of relying on God and truly savored the delight of having the working of the Holy Spirit. At the same time, I have understood that everything will become easy to one if he relies on God; if he doesn’t rely on God, nothing will he accomplish. From now on, I am willing to come before God more and do everything by relying on God.

Bai Lian

Luohe City, Hean Province