God says: “When you come into contact with a brother (or a sister), it may not show what you are like. But when you come into contact with Christ, it will not be so simple. …your arrogance will germinate at any time…. How can such humanity of yours qualify you to come into contact with Christ? Can you really treat her as God every moment?” When I read these words in the past, I thought, “It’s true I am very arrogant by nature, but I have no doubt about the substance and the identity of Christ. Perhaps others will treat Christ as a human for some reason when they come into contact with her, but I can treat her as God every moment.” So I always said “yes” to God’s question. But recently, my “yes” was overthrown.

One morning, the sister who hosted me and I went to the morning market. The sister went to a trousers stand, and the seller warmly showed her two styles of jeans. After taking a look at the jeans, she said in surprise, “What jeans! Aren’t they old?” I curled my lips and cast her a harsh look, thinking, “You do not even know ‘retro’ or ‘stonewashed’ jeans. How ignorant! I am much better informed than you!” After that, I often said that the sister did not even know this or that. Especially when she asked me about some common knowledge of life, I was always impatient and explained it to her in a harsh tone and with a superior air.

Later, the sister who coordinated with me treated another sister the same way. So I fellowshipped with her: “You are too arrogant by nature. Just because you know a little more than her, you look down on her and always compare her weak points with your strong points. Why don’t you look at how enthusiastically she is pursuing the truth?” While I was speaking, I suddenly remembered God’s words: “When you come into contact with a brother (or a sister), it may not show what you are like. But when you come into contact with Christ, it will not be so simple. …your arrogance will germinate at any time…. How can such humanity of yours qualify you to come into contact with Christ? Can you really treat her as God every moment?” God’s words of judgment made me examine myself against the words I just said: Am I not a person too arrogant by nature? I always thought that I had much common knowledge of life and was better informed than the sister, so I looked down on her and often conceitedly posed as a teacher to flaunt my knowledge. I was so arrogant that I was utterly devoid of humanity and sense. Then, I remembered God’s words: “When God comes to earth to do the work, he just performs his ministry…. He does not equip himself with much common knowledge of conducting oneself, learn many social skills, or equip himself with any other things men should know. He does not care about any of these things men should have. He only does the work within his ministry. So, in men’s eyes, the incarnated God ‘lacks’ too much, and he is simply unconcerned with many things men should have and does not understand them. Such things as the common knowledge of life and the principles of conducting oneself in society hardly have anything to do with him. …” It is so! When God comes to the earth, he only does the work within his ministry. He does not equip himself with much common knowledge of conducting oneself or learn many social skills. Although the incarnated God “lacks” too much in men’s eyes, with his normal humanity he is adequate to undertake the work he wants to do. God does not conquer men by having a transcendent humanity so that they will admire him and think highly of him. Rather, he subdues their heart with the truth from his mouth. However, I only “humble” myself before those who are superior to me or better informed than me, and I am only worshipping the lofty, admirable, and omniscient God in my notions. Since I behave arrogantly before others because I have an arrogant innate nature, I will also behave arrogantly before Christ. If I come into contact with Christ and see that she is ordinary, “unequipped,” and “ignorant,” I will completely show my contempt for her, and I will deny that she has the divine substance because she has “lacks.” Not only will I not treat her as God, but I will even unscrupulously and directly say that I am believing in a human. At that time, I will be completely ruined by my arrogant innate nature. O God! Now I have seen that because I have an arrogant innate nature and will behave without humanity and sense in many things, I can hardly treat you as God. From now on, I will strive to pursue the truth so that I can be submissive before your normal and practical humanity, and know your divine substance more deeply from your normal and practical work.

Yumo

Harbin City, Heilongjiang Province