I was formerly a leader of the Three-Self sect. In 1980, I believed in Jesus. In 1987, I took a correspondence course from Nanjing Union Theological Seminary. After three years of a systematic study, I was full of Bible knowledge and theological theory and gained the name of “a theology student.” Ever since I got this high-toned name of “a theology student,” I had felt as if my belief in God had reached its zenith, and I regarded myself as an important figure in God’s eyes. Because of that, I showed no regard for the ordinary brothers and sisters. When the brothers and sisters preached God’s end-time gospel to me, I simply condemned and resisted God’s work blindly with my “Bible knowledge” and “theological theory,” of which I was proud, and did not bow my haughty head at all. Thank God for his great grace. He remembered no transgressions of mine but saved me time and time again so that I, an arrogant and disobedient person, was able to come before him.

Early in 1998 some people came to preach the end-time gospel to me, saying that God had been incarnated the second time and come to earth and done a new work, and that he had come as a female. Hearing that, I condemned it right on the spot, saying, “A new work? God has been incarnated again? I have studied theology for three years and have read the Bible countless times; is there anything I don’t know? You say God is a female; this is bound to be an evil spirit. God is a male, but you say that he is a female. Isn’t this a false christ?” Then, I drove them away rudely. From then on, I closed all the meeting places to outsiders, not allowing anyone under me to receive the people who preached Almighty God’s end-time work.

In March of the same year, I took my wife to see a doctor. A sister (a former co-worker of mine) invited me to her home, where she asked me to listen to the word tapes and the hymns of God’s end-time work and fellowshipped with me about God’s new work. I retorted upon her immediately, “I have studied theology for three years and have read through the Bible so many times. Is there any chapter or verse I don’t know? Don’t I know more than you? You are simply playing a trick to deceive and cheat people. How could there be a three-stage work? To put it offensively, you are simply a ‘cult’ preacher….” After saying that, I even used the words “great prostitute” written in the Bible to curse and abuse her. I also said, “You want to entice me into your evil way. I won’t be fooled by you!” After that, I left in anger.

Early next morning, my eyes suddenly hurt so badly that I could barely open them. I said to my wife, “I have been trapped by satan. The devil is doing harm to me. Otherwise, how come my eyes became inflamed overnight?” So, I prayed to the Lord, “O Lord! Please curse those believers in Almighty God, because they are evil spirits and deceivers.” However, the more I prayed, the more painful my eyes became. So, I had no choice but to go everywhere to seek a cure. Several doctors dosed me with the best medicines, but I still did not get any better. On the contrary, the more medical treatment I received, the more unbearable the pain became. Seeing that, the doctors also could not do anything with it but only shook their heads. I felt my head ached as if a knife was cutting it, and I really would rather die than live. After I spent forty long days suffering from the pain, I got a little better. Having been plagued by this torment, I had nowhere to vent my anger but to lay the blame on the believers in Almighty God. So, I began to resist Almighty God even more frenziedly. I spread rumors to frighten the brothers and sisters, saying, “Don’t come into contact with the believers in Almighty God. Whoever comes into contact with them will be harmed by them. Don’t receive those people! …”

In November of that year, another sister came to preach God’s new work to me. She said that God was doing the work of purifying man this time and asked me whether one still had sin after he believed in Jesus. When I heard that, my arrogant innate nature was immediately aroused. I roared at her, “What? I have long been able to recite the scriptures you asked about. You are so ignorant, and you even try to test me!” “When the Lord comes, I will be transformed immediately. How could there be a new work? …” I shouted angrily. Seeing that my attitude was so uncompromising and hostile, the sister had no choice but to leave. I felt very proud of myself. “Humph! You even try to teach fish to swim! So ignorant you are, and you even come to preach to me. You are really too blind!” In December, a brother came to my home. He said sincerely, “Brother, shall we have a fellowship together?” I said carelessly, “Sure! Go ahead. You can fellowship about whatever you like.” The brother said, “You are a theology student. Shall we fellowship about the inside story of the Bible?” “What? The inside story of the Bible? I have read through the Bible so many times, but never have I run across these words. There is only the key idea of the Bible. You are fellowshipping about something outside the Bible. I can’t accept it. You can stop here. I won’t be deceived by you. You can leave now.” Seeing that I was so unreasonable that he could not carry the fellowship on, the brother had no choice but to leave with disappointment.

One day in late December, I went to irrigate fields. While I was cranking the machine, the crank suddenly hit me on the eye socket. Immediately, blood gushed out, and I felt so dizzy that I almost fell down. My family hurriedly sent me to the hospital, where the doctor put three stitches in my cut. For several days running, my eyes swelled so badly that I could not even open them. And I had a bad time even during the Spring Festival. With this matter coming upon me, I was lost in thought. “I have been running around working so hard for the Lord. Why do I repeatedly receive blows? Could it be that I have done something wrong?” At that time, I also reflected that the church was waning day by day, the brothers and sisters intrigued against each other and scrambled for fame and profit, and I myself also got exhausted both physically and mentally and had been weak to an extent, but it seemed that the Lord Jesus had left us and had hidden his face from us…. Thinking of that, I felt extremely discouraged and disappointed. So, I conceived an idea of returning to the dazzling world to make a living, hoping to fill the emptiness in my heart with that.